5/7

I have seen people run away from their shadows, failing to understand that it’s their own, and I’ve seen those brave ones who dig deep into the mud to find the healing that’s underneath. I’ve seen people leave the path to destruction behind, while helping others do the same. I’ve seen that emotional maturity doesn’t come with age, but with self-awareness. I’ve seen people lose touch with their truth, as I rediscover mine, while reflecting over the things I wish I could have done different, and the words I wish I could take back. I’ve seen the courage required to honestly look yourself in the mirror, and I’ve seen those asleep to the fact that the mirror even exist. I’ve seen people attack others for the reflection of themselves and I’ve seen the devil in the most beautiful faces. I’ve seen the ones who always watch, but never speak. Those who follow but never comment. I’ve seen those who vanishes in the face of hardship, and those who drops everything by the minute to offer their support. I’ve seen how the attempt to escape pain, creates more pain and how avoiding conflict creates conflict. I’ve seen people deny their addictions to a point where they believe their own lies. And I have myself believed these lies. I’ve seen that it takes great self control to watch another experience the pain and consequenses of their own choices. I’ve seen families who turn a blind eye to the suffering of their child, avoiding the harsh truth and the difficult conversations, and I’ve had the commonness of this matter confirmed. I’ve seen how the unresolved issues of a mother, as well as of a father, passes on to their child, causing a widespread of problems later in life, addiction being one of them. I’ve seen the concern in the eyes of therapists even though they don’t know half the story, and the look in the faces of friends when they think I’ve told it all. I’ve seen the disturbing behavior and listened to the nonsense of a person refusing to admit their struggles and the meaningless justifications for yet another escape. The chase for the next ecstasy, the next illusion, the next lucid drug bath. I’ve seen that whatever you are not changing, you are choosing.