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I have learned that people can’t always meet you in your feelings, not because you’re not worth it, but because they can only meet others as deeply as they have met themselves. I’ve learned that the phrase ‘you’re too much’ actually means ‘you’re too much for me to understand’ and that those who dismiss other people’s pain, are usually the ones who deny their own. I’ve learned that we show the best and hide the rest, and that we should never assume that we know what’s going on in the life of others, or behind closed doors. I’ve learned that no one want to believe that they are a victim of abuse, and that the road to admitting that, is shattering. I’ve learned that when you are disorted and in survival mode, you lose control of your actions. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t stand in the crossfire of someone at war with themselves, that an abusive person is not an reliable source of information and that the same person puts great effort into making you blind and question yourself. I’ve learned that you don’t owe anybody your story, but you don’t owe anybody the silencing of your story either. I’ve learned that abuse follows addiction, and that addiction and lies goes hand in hand. I’ve learned that you’re not responsible for the abuse done to you, however you are responsible for your attraction pattern. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t fall in love with potential. It’s not fair to the other, and it’s definitely not fair to you. I’ve learned that someone you’ve known for a month can make you feel more alive and loved than someone you’ve been with for a decade, though it takes great courage to allow someone to get close again. I’ve learned that love has so much more to offer, than what I thought. I’ve learned that friends who let you sit in the comfort of your bad habits don’t love you as much as the people who challenge you to be better. I’ve learned that ignoring your shit will not make it go away, not feeling your feelings doesn’t make them disappear and not taking responsibility for what you need to own doesn’t make you any less responsible. I’ve learned that one day, you’ll tell the story of your battle and it will become a part of someone else’s survival.